I am an atheist but I pray.

8 July 20188 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 14 Comments

I was up very early as my meds decide to. Soon It was going to be dawn, and I chose to go outside surrounded by nature. Looked at the sky changing color and smelt and felt the fresh breeze. All of this inspired me to pray, I am an atheist and but it doesn’t forbid … Continue reading I am an atheist but I pray.

Poem; Early mornings.

8 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 6 Comments

EARLY IN THE MORNINGS It is at 4:30 or 4:45 am When I usually wake up. I truly dislike this pattern. Waking up in the dark. Usually in the midst of a nightmare. It is depressing for a while Then I enjoy the following No noise in the house Outside the only sounds are wild … Continue reading Poem; Early mornings.

Poem; Hopeless.

7 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 7 Comments

Hopeless. The absence of hope. This is the state I am in now. Nothing on the horizon. But a desert without life. I often think. Why don’t I do it? Maybe by fear. Maybe for my children, my family. I wish I were religious. Pray and find comfort in my religion But I don’t, I … Continue reading Poem; Hopeless.

Big Brother

6 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 5 Comments

It’s amazing how dependent I became on the internet. And I believe I am not the only out there. It reached as far as the interaction with the government, and all tax returns must be done if you reach a certain income and other departments as well. People from my generation and the previous one … Continue reading Big Brother

Poem; The Sun

6 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 4 Comments

This star that gives life. Has been gone for far too long. We miss it, and so is nature. Why are you hiding? We have been waiting for you for so long. You have absent for over a month. It is affecting people. It is affecting me. Peace and serenity Lawrence Copyright© July 2018

Poem; Technology

6 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 1 Comment

When I was twenty in my twenties. We didn’t have many electronic gadgets. Wireless technology existed in sci-fi movies. My first cell phone looked like a small suitcase. Now a single one maybe more powerful than all of them combined. Smartphones are very new. Without it I'd feel lost, even though I've spent most of … Continue reading Poem; Technology

Poem; Fog.

5 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 6 Comments

Thick fog in July Very unusual and strange. Giving a weary feeling. It feels that it has isolated us Taking us to a world of fairy tales. Cutting us from today’s realities Part of me wishes that it would do just that. Peace and serenity Lawrence Copyright July 2018

Apologies

5 July 20185 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 2 Comments

To all of you, Let me apologize for not answering your messages or having posted anything new due to a major problem with the internet which happened a couple of days ago. We have had vicious thunderstorms that fried the lines Now it is functioning through an emergency box 4g box which is extremely slow … Continue reading Apologies

Should I stay or should I go?

2 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 28 Comments

From what I can read, a lot of bloggers have amazing stats with their new blogs, and it makes me wonder if I should stay or go and especially if I have any impact. After six months my statistics are as follows: 10765 Views 3557 Visitors 5281 Likes 2044 comments 375 followers I would like … Continue reading Should I stay or should I go?

Poem; Who owns who?

1 July 2018 ~ Lawrence Illoc ~ 12 Comments

Do you own things? Or do they own you? There is a fine line in between them. For me, I am a bit of both. I own my car and the vast majority of my objects. But items that I have a strong sentimental value Own me, like my guitars. Try to do an … Continue reading Poem; Who owns who?