Today was a tough fight between my new positive voice which I believe comes from a new white-winged angel and the dark ones. This new angel didn't come alone he came along to relieve the others as they are tired after fighting for so many weeks for survival. The dark angels had taken over, and … Continue reading Exactly as my logo portrays.
Aujourd'hui fut un dur combat entre ma nouvelle voix positive qui, je crois, vient d'un nouvel ange aux ailes blanches. Ce nouvel ange n'est pas venu seul, ils sontn venus soulager les autres, car ils sont fatigués après avoir combattu pendant tant de semaines. Les anges noirs avaient pris le dessus, et c'est quelque chose que je ne peux pas … Continue reading Comme mon logo le dépeint.
I want to thank PTSD Gal@jessiejaynes for nominating me for this prestigious award. I have been following her blog for quite a while now. Not only it is rich in the number of posts but also rich in its content and quality. I strongly suggest to follow her. RULES Thank the person who nominated you; include … Continue reading Liebster Award
Yesterday was a total emotional and factual rollercoaster. The day started fine as I drove the boys to school and afterward I was on my way to Geneva to teach English. As I mentioned in a previous post, I have performed an oil change on our two vehicles. I am always a bit apprehensive right … Continue reading Tested by the Forces.
It finally dawned on me that by continually searching for positivity you deal with procrastination at the same time. You don’t give it a chance to take over. This week I forced myself to do positive deeds and go down my list of things to do where old chores were still being brought forward instead … Continue reading The constant pursuit of positivity.
I had my session with the psychologist today, and it was a good one overall. We had our share of disagreements regarding my objections to attend the group therapy that is scheduled for May. But I will get to this last. We started first with my current condition which isn’t good, no great surprises there. … Continue reading Psychologist on 27th April 2018
Today was a great day for many reasons. I finally start looking for the positive points that went on during my day instead of the opposite. It isn’t easy as I still feel very much depressed but I am chasing away as much as I can all this negative vibes and thoughts. As I mentioned, … Continue reading The impact of a few blogs.
Today I had a rapid cycle bipolar day which went from high to worse. For once I’ll try to focus on the positive side of things instead of my usual negative bias. An excellent friend of mine invited me to lunch at his beautiful house in the outskirt of Dijon. It was a bit of … Continue reading Bipolar day.
Despite all my efforts, I cannot help it but slide deeper into the darkness of depression, and the pains are starting to become physical as well. The anxiety's demons are winning to battle versus the angels of light. I panic for everything and forget or misunderstand what is asked of me. A prime example happened … Continue reading Sliding further.
Thirteen years ago, my youngest boy was born in Geneva. It was an emergency C-section as they were little sign or no signs of life of him in his mother’s womb. Once he came out his umbilical cord was as black as charcoal. They had to resuscitate him five times before the doctors were able … Continue reading Thirteen years ago.