The rat race.

  It has been a week now that I was prescribed this new medicine to pull me out of this deep depression.
This new drug doesn’t seem to work at all, they warned me that I might be more anxious than usual for the next ten days and not to be afraid to use the anti-anxiety …

Age and bipolarity.

I am going to start by apologizing for my lack of productivity. I usually try to write one post and one poem a day, but I have not been doing so well these past few days and couldn’t get myself to write or do anything, except sleeping. I have been trying to find some relevant …

Managed to contain it.

Despite the fact that I do not feel good, I will attempt to write my daily post. I promised myself to write at least one poem and one post per day. Right now I’d rather be in bed covered up with my comforter instead of sitting in front of my computer. I have to set …

Trip to the psychiatrist.

Yesterday, was my visit with to the psychiatrist. I was looking forward to this meeting as I had high expectations. I was hoping to be able to change my treatment and to end this strategy to keep me slightly depressed to avoid potential damaging hypomanic phases. This is killing me slowly as I find myself …

No matter what. There is always something.

I was feeling a bit better this morning despite my uncontrollable anxiety. I took all my prescribed drugs at once without going over my daily allowance. It had a little effect on the anxiety but something nonetheless. Overall I moving in the right direction until I received a letter from my lawyer. The legal proceeding …

Walk The Talk, May 2018

We got up early and left ahead of time as we didn’t want to miss this event. It was a first for both us, and were pretty excited about it and didn’t know what to expect. It was a good thing that we left a bit earlier as we faced two long detours as other …

Not able to batlle it.

It is incredible to witness what depression can do to you. It feels like a court judgment for a crime you haven’t committed and the punishment takes effect immediately. The difference being that this sentencing increases in its intensity and pain, all of it gradually, without knowing when it will stop. I am up to …

Down for the count!

I have been sleeping for two days in a row now with an occasional hour or so out of bed where I manage to barely write two poems when I am used to writing one poem and regular post daily. I have to accept that there is so much I can fight; being my illness, …

Boring but necessary.

Today could be defined as boring, In my case boring is good as I can rest my mind and body. To be honest, my mind doesn’t stop it relentlessly tries to go to dark places, but I fight it with ease when the days are quiet. This is what I meant when I say that …

I think I did it!

Today was a pleasant non-eventful day for anyone who doesn’t suffer from any disorder and functions without medication. But for somebody like me, I have to say that is a great productive day filled with initiative and results. I know it sounds grandiose and when you see what I have done is no great shakes …