It’s started yesterday.
It was trying to get under my skin and to my sternum but I fought with all I could. Tricks acquired from therapies, medicines but it finally it won the battle during the night.
Since of late last night, it cold and unpleasant pressure is here. Sometimes it is so hard that I feel like vomiting. It’s pushing me towards the trap of darkness and depression. I take all the medication that I can get in order not to fall into the obscurity of depression. I am getting weaker by the hour. This is the first time that I’m writing something that is happening live. I am trying to be as coherent as possible.
It is awful to feel and to be powerless. My anxiety is at its highest. All of this is born out financial problems. I can’t deal with them anymore. I don’t know what to do, who to turn to. My head won’t shut up.
I am so tired and I haven’t done anything all day. I beyond exhaustion and the pain is back. I’m afraid of tomorrow…
Peace and serenity